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On November 13, 2015, Antoine Leiris's wife, Hélène Muyal-Leiris, was killed by terrorists while attending a rock concert at the Bataclan Theater in Paris, in the deadliest attack on France since World War II. Three days later, Leiris wrote an open letter addressed directly to his wife's killers, which he posted on Facebook. Now Leiris tells the full story of his grief and struggle. You Will Not Have My Hate is a remarkable, heartbreaking, and, indeed, beautiful memoir of how he and his baby son, Melvil, endured in the days and weeks after Hélène’s murder.
"An extraordinary read, honest, intimate and lightly poetic. It is a testament of love, loss and grief and also the often untold story of those who are left behind and must find a way to go on"—Irish Independent

"A book of exceptional grace... the most extraordinary account of an emotional journey" – Observer

“All about love and loss…. An astonishing feat… I defy anyone not to shed tears at least once when reading this book.” – Sunday Times

You Will Not Have My Hate is a courageous and profoundly life affirming manifesto that will live beyond any momentary victory of terrorism. How indestructible these beautiful words are… A heartbreaking eulogy.” –New York Journal of Books

“In a world of anodyne literature, Antoine Leiris's You Will Not Have My Hate stands out like a flare in the night… A work of pure grace… Ultimately a book about language and its necessity as a means not just of making sense of unspeakable tragedy, but of surviving it.” — Interview Magazine

Courageous and inspirational, without a wasted word.” – Kirkus, starred review

“One of the most enduring and memorable messages after the deadly attack on Paris's Bataclan theater was written by journalist Antoine Leiris… This bracing, courageous, and utterly beautiful book shows us that he had much more to say.” – 21 Must-Read Books for Fall, Elle.com

“This powerful one-sitting read speaks of a very specific grief to which many in the world feel connected.”—Booklist 
© Sandrine Roudeix
Antoine Leiris is a journalist in Paris, and a former cultural commentator for France Info and France Bleu. You Will Not Have My Hate is his first book.

Translated from French by Sam Taylor, the author of The Republic of Trees, The Amnesiac and The Island at the End of the World. He has translated more than a dozen novels from the French, including Laurent Binet’s HHhH and Maylis de Kerangal's The Heart. View titles by Antoine Leiris

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On November 13, 2015, Antoine Leiris's wife, Hélène Muyal-Leiris, was killed by terrorists while attending a rock concert at the Bataclan Theater in Paris, in the deadliest attack on France since World War II. Three days later, Leiris wrote an open letter addressed directly to his wife's killers, which he posted on Facebook. Now Leiris tells the full story of his grief and struggle. You Will Not Have My Hate is a remarkable, heartbreaking, and, indeed, beautiful memoir of how he and his baby son, Melvil, endured in the days and weeks after Hélène’s murder.

Praise

"An extraordinary read, honest, intimate and lightly poetic. It is a testament of love, loss and grief and also the often untold story of those who are left behind and must find a way to go on"—Irish Independent

"A book of exceptional grace... the most extraordinary account of an emotional journey" – Observer

“All about love and loss…. An astonishing feat… I defy anyone not to shed tears at least once when reading this book.” – Sunday Times

You Will Not Have My Hate is a courageous and profoundly life affirming manifesto that will live beyond any momentary victory of terrorism. How indestructible these beautiful words are… A heartbreaking eulogy.” –New York Journal of Books

“In a world of anodyne literature, Antoine Leiris's You Will Not Have My Hate stands out like a flare in the night… A work of pure grace… Ultimately a book about language and its necessity as a means not just of making sense of unspeakable tragedy, but of surviving it.” — Interview Magazine

Courageous and inspirational, without a wasted word.” – Kirkus, starred review

“One of the most enduring and memorable messages after the deadly attack on Paris's Bataclan theater was written by journalist Antoine Leiris… This bracing, courageous, and utterly beautiful book shows us that he had much more to say.” – 21 Must-Read Books for Fall, Elle.com

“This powerful one-sitting read speaks of a very specific grief to which many in the world feel connected.”—Booklist 

Author

© Sandrine Roudeix
Antoine Leiris is a journalist in Paris, and a former cultural commentator for France Info and France Bleu. You Will Not Have My Hate is his first book.

Translated from French by Sam Taylor, the author of The Republic of Trees, The Amnesiac and The Island at the End of the World. He has translated more than a dozen novels from the French, including Laurent Binet’s HHhH and Maylis de Kerangal's The Heart. View titles by Antoine Leiris

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